The Tears Will Not Come

I remember the horror movie
I remember being scared
I remember being paralyzed
But I was a dumb kid

Now,
Nightmares mean very little
But the daytime is frightening
The computer screen
The office
The possibility of failure
Scare me
Like I was a dumb kid

My stomach twists
My mind warps
My idea disappears

Ignorance cannot comfort

I look for love
All I find is me